I'm waaay too obsessed with the Yahoo! pools....i'm spending more time in there than i am studying, and i can't stop myself....is there a Fantasy Pools Anonymous support group? I think I need to go.

Gabe helped me fix my router so that I can finally start video conferencing and receiving files. Heh, and for like forever I was trying to figure the damn thing out on my own. All it took was a simple call to San Jose.

Good thing Milesa told me about MoonTaxi.com. Without it, I don't think I'd still be able to stay up right now, and I'd be a helluva lot more distracted trying to study. She was right - it's much better studying to random jazz than it is to listen to the stuff I've already got, since i'll end up humming along to my own stuff since I've heard it before. Sound quality is amazing, and no commercials too. Maybe there actually is something to listening to her...hmmm.....

Song of the Moment: Rise and Fall by Craig David featuring Sting. Wish it had different lyrics though, I'm not too keen on the lyrics being so depressingly introspective. Yet I can identify with them.

Here's where it gets interesting...
Julie: "Why did you go pickup your MRI? Dr. Richards already has your results. He emailed me about them on Wednesday. Didn't you see him on Wednesday?"
Me: "Uh, nooo....I was supposed to see you Wednesday, but you were sick...I don't see Richards until Monday."
Julie: "Really...that's so strange, he told me your ligaments are torn, but your knee's not locked. But it's not in your file, I don't see evidence of the MRI results anywhere!"
Me: "But the no-locking knee thing is good, right? That means no arthoscopic surgery?"
Julie: "Sort of, but it could also mean an entirely different surgery altogether..."
Me: "Uhhhh......???"
Julie: "Anyway, in his email he said to go ahead with more aggressive rehab, so we're gonna force your knee to go straight."
Me (exchanging very worried looks with this other girl who I always see there and also tore her ACL): "Uhhhhhh???...excuse me? What did you say??"
ACL Girl: "That did NOT sound good...you're dead buddy! Julie's gonna kill you."

And Julie in all her cold-hearted fury, proceeded to calmly hook me up to the muscle stim machine before putting all her weight down on my knee, forcing it to straighten...I was in pain's hell. I was like, what's wrong with you woman! You're gonna break my leg in half! And all Julie, again showing her cold-hearted evil womanism, tells me "Stop making those faces! Stop complaining! Shut up and take it like a man!"

I really resent that last one. I'm getting awfully tired of women telling me to shut up and take it like a man when they abuse me.

Anyway, after an hour of torture treatment (whom the receptionist at the hospital told me I'd be going through just minutes before I got there...little did I know how true that would be for the day) Julie finally told me something that made me happy: "I'm really proud of you today. You're down to 8 degrees, and we can get you that knee brace now. You can ditch one of the crutches now." "Can I use a cane instead?" "Just as good." "WHOO HOO!!" So now I'm officially upgraded from crutches to the cane that Grace lent me. I have to admit, my knee feels great comparatively speaking. I can go down stairs with normal steps now instead of one step at a time. So I promptly went out and watched Old School with some old school buddies and Connie. Hilarious movie! If you liked American Pie, go watch Old School.

Pegs came over yesterday and brought me lunch from my fave fast food, Arby's...so sweet....she's the best =)

Song of the Moment: Clocks by Coldplay...I've been hooked onto the song ever since I watched them perform it at the Brit Awards this week...I liked them before, but this song makes me a fan now....heh...I wish I could go to their concert with Kitty!!

In the end, the couple look like they're stronger than ever. Myself, I would personally would have a very difficult time even trying to look at my wife ever again if she had an affair. A few of my friends (you read right...more than one) that have been steadily going out with someone at the moment have also, either currently or at one point in time, cheated on their girlfriend/boyfriend (you read that right too...not just guys, but girls too). Does it bug me? Of course it does. It makes me think a lot less of them (and I can say this publicly because they already know) but it's not my place to do anything about it - after all, I'm not the one involved in their relationship, and most of the time I'm only friends with them, not the people they cheat on. It's a Catch-22 - if I do anything about it, I'm a tattletale; if I don't do anything about it, I condone it. I'm neither.

Anyway, just some thoughts.

On a lighter note, Ricky came over today and we watched Simone...great movie. Then he proceeded to ruin my Counter-Strike, posing as me while playing Jo, and playing probably the worst I've ever seen him play - making me look bad in the process, since Jo didn't know he was over at my place - and as soon as he left, CS wouldn't work anymore. I guess that's a good thing though, so I can focus on studying for the stats midterm next Friday...sigh....

After lunch, we proceeded to the Raptors game...in which i'd realized just how cramped the seats are. I've never complained before, but sitting there made me realize just how little room Ive got for me and my busted knee. It was a great game, Vince did nothing and T-Mac completely dominated, but we still won 99-97. Yet we all felt soooo ripped off....had Alvin Williams sink just ONE of his free throws near the end of the game, we'd have gotten FREE PIZZA!! (if the Raptors score 100 points, everyone at the game gets a free slice from pizza pizza) As they got on pace to score 100, instead of chanting "de-fence! de-fence!" with the announcer, we started chanting "pizz-a! pizz-a!" It's all a conspiracy, I tell you =P

Once the game ended we decided to watch Daredevil since we didn't want to face the horrid traffic on the way home yet, so we popped by Paramount...luckily a show was just about to start at 5, and we got there 5 minutes before. I thought it was pretty good...well worth my money, contrary to the critics' reviews. Of course, it didn't hurt that Jennifer Garner is HOT! (just an interesting side note, I don't understand how half the guys I talk to say she's not that great, yet most girls i talk to agree that she's hot....) It followed the current trend of comic book movies, leaving open endings so there can be a sequel, just like X2 which I can't wait for to come out...

I've been trying unsuccessfully to download the DD soundtrack...every single song I download has the demo sound crap in there...if you've got it, let me know!

Song of the Moment: The Calling's For You from the DD Soundtrack....:

I am vision, I am justice
Never thought that I could love
Living in shadows, faded existence
It was never good enough
Within the darkness, you were the light that shines away
You’re all trapped in violence, I can be the man who save the day

I’m there for you, no matter what
I’m there for you, never givin’ up
I’m there for you, for you

Someone has changed me, this is who I am
I know I was blinded, my heart let me find it
A truth makes a better man
I didn’t know that you were right in front of me
I’m mask of silence, what would put away so we can see

I’m there for you, no matter what
I’m there for you, never givin’ up
I’m there for you, for you

Within the darkness, you are the light that shines away
In this blind justice, I can be the man that saves the day
I’m there for you, no matter what
I’m there for you, never givin’ up
You know it’s true
You were there for me, and I’m there for you
For you, for you, oh for you

Talked with Carolyn for a quite a bit tonight. Always nice to talk with her...she's one of those people where you can not talk for a couple of months, pick up the phone and have a night-long conversation. Thanks Care =)

Update on my knee...good news, bad news - it's unofficially official, I've got a completely torn ACL and torn meniscus floating around in my knee, blocking it from straightening out completely. I'll need two surgeries: the first, arthoscopic surgery, to clean out my knee so I can straighten it again....the second, to replace the ACL. At least, this is what Dr. Richards has diagnosed me with. Because of that, he managed to score me an MRI appointment for tomorrow instead of the normal 2-3 month wait. So we'll know for 100% sure what's wrong with my leg after the results come in. Cross my fingers, pray for the best. At least I got my handicap parking permit on Wednesday. SCORE!!

Sitting on my ass so much, I've finally started to practice guitar and piano again. Man, everything's foreign to me all of a sudden - it's as if I have to learn everything from scratch again. But learning new stuff is fun...so off I go to practice...yes, at 3:30am.... =)

Here I am alone again now
Talking to myself...again
Lately I've been seeing less of you
What's a man to do

I understand that you've been busy
I understand there's not much time
You've always got the best intentions
Every single time

As the hours of the night go by
Just like your alibis
I stop and think
It's not like I don't really know you well
Sometimes I think I know you better
Than you know yourself

I understand that it's been crazy
and you can't be by my side
You've got the perfect explanation
Every single time, every single time
I understand
I understand
and now I understand
I understand

If absence makes the heart grow fonder
Why do I grow
Stronger in my resolve
Everyday I notice
I'm becoming someone...
Someone who understands
I understand
I understand

I understand you really miss me
but you can't be by my side
You always got the best excuses
You're such a creative girl
You always seemed to keep me waiting
And now I really understand
That I'm the one who should be changing
I will never ever wait again
Wait again, wait again

I understand, I understand
I understand
I used to think you really loved me
But now I know that you just don't care
I understand
that you just don't care

Somewhere when I leave you
I hope you'll understand

Somewhere in between, I managed to pass out for a solid 4 hours, which explains why I'm still up at 4am right now. It was good though, because Jo and Ricky came over to visit, and they were over til about 2:30 at which point Jo started to pass out...nice to know I've got friends I can depend on that bring over plenty of snacks for me to get fat on while I veg and don't exercise =P

Just happier today than I've been the past few days. Happy Chinese New Year of the Ram!

Song of the Moment: Five for Fighting's Superman. Go watch Smallville! Tuesdays at 8 on CityTV.