justin's thoughts | Wednesday, November 12, 2003


Somebody please kick my ass...if you see me making some stupid crazy purchase. I need to save for Christmas and pay my bloody tuition bills. =)

A little more light-hearted post tonight, as I said before I don't tend to blog when the going's good, so I'm gonna try to change that since my latest blogs tend to be a little....dark. Heh. I barely made it to my physio this morning. 14 minutes late. 1 more minute and I would've gotten my throat cut by Jen, along with emptying my wallet for missing yet another appointment. Instead, I get to face Julie's wrath: "Don't you have any respect for the clinic's time?" I flash my trademark "me-innocent-don't-be-mad" grin, she looks at me, lets out what sounds to be a groan, and says "We'll do what we can with the time left." Score! Still got it. My smile's such a dangerous weapon if used in the wrong hands. LOL.

I'm starting to watch too much TV now that I've got some down time. But at least I'm finding quality programming to watch: I really like I'm With Her, the new ABC show. It's really cute, sort of like a weekly romantic comedy I like to keep up with. Unfortunately I'm a sucker for romantic comedy movies, so with I'm With Her, even with the occasionally cheesy lines, I still really like it. =)

Going to the Brahms & Shostakovich concert tomorrow night with Adrian...hope it's better than the Golden Autumn Charity Benefit I was at last month with Ti. =) At least this time we have great seats! Can't wait.

So happy! Found out today my Mandarin exam is moved from Christmas to January. One less exam baby! I had 5 exams in 5 days before...but now it's 4 exams in 5 days...still hell week, but Mandarin was gonna be a pretty hard exam so I've got more time to study for everything else! Booyah!

[sotm] Josh Kelley - Amazing.

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~~ jonny is THE MAN ~~ | Tuesday, November 11, 2003


Wazzaap. I'm Bored.
i thought i would type something short after justins long thing.. i still havent exaclty figured what it was about... but ya...

-jon

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justin's thoughts | Sunday, November 09, 2003


Question of ethics...how low can one go in the political arena in order to achieve their goals? How far is one willing to go in order to be the popular one, to be the elected one, to be the leader? I guess in the case of the Toronto mayoral race, some cases like Barbara Hall, one can go pretty low in going just short of declaring David Miller a racist for saying he looks like a mayor. "Does that mean the mayor has to be a white anglosaxan guy?" Damn, Barbara. Don't you already realize you're over the hill? I can't stand her...listening to her debate on television is so excruciating, it feels like pulling all four of your wisdom teeth at once.

[note: By the way, I was in no way endorsing Barbara Hall or David Miller to be the next Toronto mayor. As much as I hate the fact that his campaign workers called me in the middle of something important to ask me to vote for him, I'm going to cast my vote for John Tory. Why? Because he's a businessman, just like me. Hall's pedestrian leadership style makes me want to choke. Miller is a NDP-type leader, and we all remember what THAT brought us with Bob Rae. Tory to me is the consensus "sexy" pick, part of the new breed of leaders, with a clean image, hard-working researcher, financial expertise, and the ability to be diplomatic and sensitive about things, unlike outgoing Mel Lastman (a la Hells Angels, a la Olympic Bid "Don't boil me in that African tribal pot"). Polls open tomorrow!]

But that's beside the point here.

Before you read any further, realize that I'm in no way doing a knee-jerk reaction to a recent event. This has been on my mind for a while, and watching the mayoral debates only developed it into a more conclusive thought.

Watching it made me think about the parallels to my life. Politics exist in every facet of your world, whether in the workplace, at church, or even amongst friends. But I've left behind underhanded political tactics to rise to the top in life's game of snakes and ladders. Fly by night with smokes and mirrors. Life was always in the fast lane, just my style. Take a risk while driving on the road, cut across and swoop in front of a slower moving car, and leave them in your dust. They're coughing and choking on my dust? Their problem, not mine.

Back in my heyday, I'd at least be able to run with the best of them and hold my own. Sure, I'd lose a couple of battles here and there, but I generally managed to stay a step ahead. But soon I was just tired of the lies and politics. Integrity and maturity, as people insisted it was, kicked in. I went from constant acceleration to cruise control.

To top it all off, I decided to keep my head firmly turned to the right, blind to all that zoomed past me in the fast lane on the left.

I thought if I left behind my arsenal of political boxing, I'd at least be left alone. I wanted to try out this "integrity and maturity" theory, and do things "the right way". I thought, as a grown-up now, the political weight would be shifted off friends and church life, and firmly into office and parliament. I was in a different game now, with a whole new set of rules. Those that were still living my old life hadn't grown up yet.

I was wrong.

Behind my back, I could feel the jabs hitting me. Problem is, what I ignored as merely jabs turned out to be heavy body blows, and now I've got the bruises to prove it. I soon realized that the people that convinced me it was all about "integrity and maturity" were the same type of people that I was constantly leaving in my dust. What infuriates me even more is that I'm being pummeled by the same underhanded tactics that I swore off using. Everyone had passed me in the fast lane while I was chuggin' along. It took me a while to realize what I was feeling was political defeat. (Just like Barbara Hall, heh heh...couldn't resist)

I thought I wouldn't have to worry about ethics in the use of agendas with friends and even with church and fellowship, because hey, if they're your friends, even if you're not that great friends with them, you don't need to step on them. Same deal with church/fellowship. We're all on the same team for God. I was wrong about that too. So-called leaders and friends have thrown ethics into the trash can.

And now I'm just pissed off.

It's now become a game of catch-up. I'm in business, and the stereotype for businessmen is that we have the ability to fight for what we want. The question now is, do I resort to lowball tactics to get back ahead now? If I want to make someone look bad, shall I ask people to "pray with me for his issues", instantly making myself look like a saint and the other a disgrace? How true is the adage of fighting fire with fire? What I'm interested in hearing is whether it's okay to play the political hand when you're confronted with it, and what sort of tactics are allowable.

Not one single politician can prove they've lived a squeaky-clean life. Yet they're the ones in power.

Maybe there's a lesson to be learned there.

[sotm] Linkin Park - Numb.

if you've read this far, i'm truly impressed. i'm also sure it's caused some sort of reaction, so it'd be great if i could get your thoughts in the comments. if you never post a comment, just do it this one time.

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justin's thoughts | Friday, November 07, 2003


I am so sick of relationships...not mine though...it's everyone else's relationships I'm sick of. So much crap they put themselves through and they cry to me about it. Don't get me wrong, I'm more than happy to lend a listening ear and be there for my friends, but not if they ask me for a solution to their problems but don't even listen to me when I give them advice. Can't people have normal relationships these days?! Can't people learn how to listen?

I swear, if I hear someone else go, "Jus, why is it that so-and-so did this? What does it mean? What am I gonna do about it?", but they're asking me this for the second time without following my advice the first time, I'm gonna pop a blood vessel and pull a Me-Myself-and-Irene schizo. You asked for the crap, you deal with it. If I gave you advice and you don't listen to me and you're still complaining, well guess what genius...there's only so much I can take of incompetent ignorance before I'll go nuts. And believe me, you don't want to be around when I go nuts. Ask Andrea. I was ready to kill her. At least she realized there was no one else to blame but herself =)

And to top it all off, my inspirations for staying single have become turncoats and started dating people. Now who's gonna tell me it's good to be single?? Thanks Dave. Traitor.

[sotm] Marques - Clubbin'

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1:47 PM



justin's thoughts | Thursday, November 06, 2003


Taking it easy...no midterms for a whole month, I even managed to get my Mandarin homework finished well ahead of time instead of furiously cramming it in like I usually do. So I end up watching some TV, download some music (I bought my first online track!), and blog a little.

It's times like these I wish I had a job. At least I'd be more productive, and I'd be making money, which is something I need when I realize just how far my spending has gone out of control as this month's credit card bills came in. Having a high limit can be a real bitch sometimes. Sigh. And Iris just got a new job working as customer service at the platinum seats during Raptor AND Leaf Games. Grrr...

Speaking of which, I'm really looking forward to the Mavs game tomorrow night...good ol' AmEx Front of the Line, I got great seats. Problem is, Nash got injured in tonight's game against the Wiz...man! Just reading the article in the Toronto Star today about the prospect of him signing with Toronto next year has gotten me excited! Imagine a backcourt of Nash and Carter...SICK.

CityTV is on crack. A week after declaring that they moved Smallville from Tuesdays @ 8 to Wednesdays @ 10 and started showing the new episodes in sync with the WB instead of lagging a week behind, without warning they switched it back to Tuesdays and lagging a week again. I turned on the TV tonight anticipating "Relic". All I saw was Blind Date. What the hell is CityTV doing?! Good thing Matt has satellite, I hit him up for a tape as soon as I found out. I'm not gonna wait a whole week for an episode that's already been aired - heck, I'd be able to download it by then anyway.

At least I got to watch some shows I don't normally watch - I actually watched a full episode of Ed. Just the premise itself turned me off, but then watching it, I realized more and more why it's survived into its 4th season now. The dialogue reminds me a lot of Gilmore Girls (I was forced to watch it the first time...I swear! I refuse to watch it now) but it's much more catered to the general crowd instead of a chick show. I actually really liked it, and I went on the NBC site to lookup the past episode guides to catch up. Of course, it didn't hurt that I was watching it during a big storyline segment and not some regular episode - Ed's new girlfriend Carol moves to New York to be a writer. And NBC's billing next week as "the episode three years in the making", as Ed's determined to go to New York and ask Carol to marry him. I'm definitely looking forward to next week's episode. The show does seem to be a little towards the chick side, but close enough to the middle that I'll still watch it.

Which brings me to my next point. Lyds called me metrosexual. I put it in my MSN nick, and then everyone thought I was some kind of sick freak. If you idiots don't know what it means, google it first, THEN make a comment! The way I see it, it's better metrosexual than homosexual =)

Anyway, time to sleep. I've been sleeping at 3am, but I've been trying forever to start sleeping at 2, then 1. It's already 2:10. Maybe it's the violent intensity of Kill Bill that's keeping me up. All that blood and limbs everywhere...dang. I don't think I should've brought Tianne to see it. Although it was a well made film, it was a little too much over the top, even for me. At least I can look forward to Matrix Revolutions, which came out today...anyone wanna go see it? =)

[sotm] Nick Lachey's This I Swear.

ps: Christmas is coming. Yes, my big tree's already up. Has been since the first of November. The little tree in my room is up too. Has been since the 3rd. Only 49 more days til Christmas!

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